Broken home, all alone
Broken home, all alone

I can't seem to fight these feelings
I'm caught in the middle of this
And my wounds are not healing
I'm stuck in between my parents
I wish I had someone to talk to
Someone I could confide in
I just want to know the truth
I just want to know the truth
Want to know the truth!

Broken home
All alone

I know my mother loves me
But does my father even care?
If I'm sad or angry
You were never ever there
When I needed you
I hope you regret what you did
I think I know the truth
Your father did the same to you
Did the same to you!

I'm crying day and night now
What is wrong with me?
I cannot fight now
I feel like a weak link
Crying day and night now

What is wrong with me?
I cannot fight now
I feel like a weak link
(Push it back inside) 4X
A weak link

Broken home, all alone

It feels bad to be alone
Crying by yourself living in a broken home
How could I tell it?
So all y'all could feel it
Depression strikes hard just like my old earth would tell it
To me, her son, she told me I'm the one
Pain bottled up, 'bout to blow like a gun
Stories that I tell
Are nonfiction
And you can't take it back cuz it's already done

BROKEN HOME! BROKEN HOME!

Can't seem to fight these feelings
Caught in the middle of this
My wounds are not healing
Stuck in between my parents
BROKEN HOME! BROKEN HOME!

I played a wedding for the money,
and I wished that I could tell the bride and groom
Just what I think of marriage
And what's in store after their honeymoon.
and I was grumblin' to the dancers
About how men and women ought to live apart
And how a promise never made can not be broken
And can never break a heart
When suddenly from out of nowhere,

A little girl came dancing 'cross the floor,
And all her crinolines were billowing
Beneath the skirt of calico that she wore.
Oh what a joy fell on the honored guests
As each of them was drawn into her dream,
And they laughed and clapped and stomped their feet
And hollered at her, "Dance little Jean!"

CHORUS:
Dance, little Jean, this day is for you,
Two people you love, stood up to say, "I do"
Dance little Jean, the prayer that you had
Was answered today
Your mama's marrying your dad

Well, my cynical heart just melted
'Cause I figured what this get together meant
How it ended year of tears and sad confusion
That the little girl had spent.
Well they told the band to pack it up
About the time the couple cut the cake,
But we played as long as they stayed
For love and laughs and little Jeanie's sake.
And we played

CHORUS

Momma please stop cryin, I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin' me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean those nasty things you said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don't wanna go back to that place, but don't have no choice, no way
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me like it did my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it comes naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step-brother anyways
And I don't want my mom to have to change her last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't leave)

Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave

Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night

Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
You know I just closed my eyes
My whole world disappeared
Father of mine
Take me back to the day
When I was still your golden boy
Back before you went away

I remember blue skies
Walking the block
I loved it when you held me high
I loved to hear you talk
You would take me to the movie
You would take me to the beach
You would take me to a place inside
That is so hard to reach

Father of mine
Tell me where did you go
You had the world inside your hand
But you did not seem to know
Father of mine
Tell me what do you see
When you look back at your wasted life
And you don't see me

I was ten years old
Doing all that I could
It wasn't easy for me
To be a scared white boy
In a black neighborhood
Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
With a five dollar bill
I never understood you then
And I guess I never will

Daddy gave me a name
My dad he gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name

Daddy gave me a name
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name

Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
I just closed my eyes
And the world disappeared
Father of mine
Tell me how do you sleep
With the children you abandoned
And the wife I saw you beat

I will never be safe
I will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
I will always be lame
Now I'm a grown man
With a child of my own
And I swear I'm not going to let her know
All the pain I have known

Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My dad gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Then he walked away
Then he walked away

Have I ever told you that
I'm sorry it didn't work
Have I ever told you that
I'm sorry that I walked out
Have I ever told you that
I'm sorry that I didn't think about
how it was going to make you feel
Have I ever told you that
I'm sorry I wasn't honest
We don't know how the lies are gonna come back to haunt us
Have I ever told you that
I'm sorry that I broke my promise
That I made to you

CHORUS:
But I believe that
It was right for me
Or at least it seemed so at the time
But reality
Got the best of me
And I guess I lost my mind
Have I ever told you that

I'm sorry that I forgot
Just how hard I said I tried
I thought I did
But I guess not
Have I ever told you that
I've been thinking about this
Quite an awful lot

Have I ever told you that
I love the way you turned out
Have I ever told you that
I've been watching and I'm so proud
Have I ever told you that
I'm still trying to figure out what's inside of me

BRIDGE:
But I believe
There is hope for me
And it's gonna take some time
There's a God who sees
What's inside of me
And He can change my mind

When a single mom goes out
On a date with somebody new,
It always winds up feeling more like a job interview.
An' my momma used to wonder
If she'd ever meet someone,
Who wouldn't find out about me
And then turn around and run.
I met the man I call my dad
When I was five years old.
He took my mom out to a movie
And for once, I got to go.
A few months later I remember lying there in bed,
I overheard him pop the question, and I prayed that she'd say: "Yes."

And then, all of a sudden,
Oh, it seemed so strange to me,
How we went from something's missing to a family.
Lookin' back, all I can say,
About all the things he did for me,
Is I hope I'm at least half the dad,
That he didn't have to be.

I met the girl that's now my wife
About three years ago,

We had the perfect marriage
But we wanted somethin' more.
Now, here I stand
Surrounded by our family and friends,
Crowded 'round the nursery window
As they bring the baby in.

And now, all of a sudden,
It seems so strange to me,
How we've gone from something's missing to a family.
Lookin' through the glass,
I think about the man that's standin' next to me.
And I hope I'm at least half the dad,
That he didn't have to be.

Instrumental break.
Lookin' back all I can say,
About all the things he did for me,
Is I hope I'm at least half the dad,
That he didn't have to be.
Because he didn't have to be.
You know, he didn't have to be.

I have been unfaithful
I have been unworthy
I have been unrighteous
And I have been unmerciful
I have been unreachable
I have been unteachable
I have been unwilling
And I have been undesirable
And sometimes I have been unwise

CHORUS:
I've been undone by what I'm unsure of
But because of you
And all that you went through
I know that I have never been unloved

I have been unbroken
I have been unmended
I have been uneasy
And I've been unapproachable
I've been unemotional
I've been unexceptional
I've been undecided
And I have been unqualified

Unaware I have been unfair
I've been unfit for blessings from above
But even I can see
The sacrifice You made for me
To show that I have never been unloved
It's because of you
And all that you went through
I know that I have never been unloved

Well excuse me
I don't mean to complain
But there's something I've just gotta say
Something I just can't get off my brain
I need to tell you
My heart breaks everyday
As I think of how it used to be
And you tell me it can never be the same
I've got to give myself some change
No matter what we do or say
Love won't go away

This song goes out to my prodigal dad
When you left it hurt me more than words can say
You were the best friend that a boy ever had
Do you really think it's best you went away?
Prodigal dad

The day you left
I felt so all alone
Man I felt just like an orphan
Then my Father came and held me like a son
And I looked at all I had
Where there used to be a dad
There's so much more than a dad

And maybe
Maybe you'll hear me out
And see I'm learning what God's mercy's all about
And my love
Is deeper than the pain
And I'll forgive you everyday
Because love never goes
Away

We've both been mistreated,
no wish to repeat this
You're sorry - you wonder
If ever I'll show you grace again
My vision is tunneled, my motives, oh so rageful
But the mirror I'm reading
Says "forgive, and then forgive again"
Though there's a wrong
A grudge will tear us down
We wait too long, the air turns stale
Will we reconcile?

CHORUS:
It's all we're needing… reconcile
It's all we're needing to mend these broken smiles

Oh miserable me, miserable you
The walls erected between us
You keep your side, I'll not intrude
And we'll get used to this denial
Turn our heads and wait a while
Much too long, the air turns stale
Will we reconcile?

Caught in the crossfire while the battle raged down the hall
There were no bad guys, just a couple of consenting adults
I just had to get away, but I had no car to drive
So my body stayed inside my room
As I slipped into my mind

CHORUS
I'm going out where no one can find me
Beyond this thickened air, where my spirit is free
I'm blasting off with a strum of my six string
Six String Rocketeer
Well, my getaway car is this beat up guitar
And I'm off to that place
Where I find my escape
Life as it happens is rarely the way that you planned
Roll with the punches or you'll end up a mad, little man

A broken home was not the place they intended this to end
But the wounds were deep inside my soul
Let the healing begin

REPEAT CHORUS
I step on board as commander in chief
With Sgt. Pepper in military motif
We walk this ship and I nod with a grin
At my friends Gordon Sumner and Mudslide Slim
"Take me to the pilot," I demand
And they lead me to the Rocket Man
"Who's navigating?" I inquire
As Julio swoops down by the schoolyard
There my soul was as light as a feather
As the Piano Man had us all singing together

Shallow capacity is bearing all I see, and I know
It's disease, it's loss, it's death knocking at my door
I click these thoughts to something else, something more.
I'm so blue, you're so blue.
Detached harmonies, all the airways scream dissonance
And we know of broken life, broken homes,
Broken hearts and broken bones,
Recycling the paper of a crying world's suicide note and

We're so blue, so blue. See the world spinning round
A sucking hole that souls go down
Embrace the sorrow of today because repentance finds a way
Only His blood can heal our wounds
Only His blood can heal our wounds
And if repentance finds a way, what's left today to be… blue?
A final symphony,
The precipice too close, you're scaring me - back away
Sin is real, it doesn't feel, It always, only always, steals.
Run to the cross the only joy that's real.

I can't meet
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing

Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomorrow
I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream

What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real
Just a dream
What is real just a dream

I saw you in your morning
because our room was just the same
through imaginary walls of masking tape.
And somewhere past the quiet
I think I heard you growing up
and I don't think I'll ever be the same.

And Dad was there beside us,
and he would sing us into dreams of good
old Blue and Seno Roads to die on.
And river days of heat and haze
we'd run until the sun would fade
and then he'd carry us up to our beds at night.

And now we see this
different angle
it's a second glance at life
in a world where fathers leave
their boys
for the finer things.
And I can still remember laughing
so hard it hurts my heart
to think that we were just the
lucky few, and all along,
well I never even knew.

The light of day upon us
but now the scenery had changed,
the Coventry was gone for new horizons.
Just bigger boys with bigger toys
and separate rooms to stop the noise
because we were still too young to know the finest Call.

But the holidays and candles
brought the aging of our youth
burning all the innocence, disguising all the truth.
But our sunburned skin kept
the taste of the salt
to fire the feelings we'd always fought
and we found a new Companion just for the fall.

And now we see this
different angle
it's a second glance at life
in a world where fathers leave
their boys
for the finer things.
And I can still remember laughing
so hard it hurts my heart
to think that we were just the
lucky few,
and all along,
well I never even knew.

The season brought us back again
just the three of us alone.
And if you ever see my heart fall again
please pick it up and bring it home.

I saw you in your morning
because our room was just the same
through imaginary walls of masking tape.
And somewhere past the quiet
I think I herad you growing up and I,
well I don't think I'll ever be the same.

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away
What stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night
Twenty years now lost
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems
They never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along, so why can't they?
If this is what he wants
And this is what she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night
Twenty years now lost
It's not right

I talked to Mother just today
She told me Daddy walked away
Now everything's about to change
I sought for words I could not find
A thousand questions filled my mind
How could you throw it all away

My heart is left without a home
But I won't let it turn to stone
There's got to be another way
Cause I can't take this pain

CHORUS:
Tell me why, tell me why
Why do people run away
Can we try, try to find
Try to find the will to stay

A beating heart, a tender kiss
Love is so much more than this
Always givin' in and never giving up
I know the man I want to be
I've seen enough of misery
It's time for me to break free, yeah

Doubt may whisper in my ear
But I will love in spite of fear
With everything inside of me
(Tell me) Is it just a dream

CHORUS:

Tell me why, tell me why (love is here to stay, love is every day, love is never fading)
Tell me why do people run away
Can we try, try to find (love will set us free, love is what we need, love is persevering)
Can we try to find the will to stay

BRIDGE:
I'm finally finding my way back to love
My way back to love again
I'm finally finding my way back to love
My way back to love again

Doubt may whisper in my ear
That I will love in spite of fear
With everything inside of me
Oh does anyone believe

CHORUS

Cause every time you run
Every time you run away
Can we try, try try try try
You don't have to run
You don't have to run away

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door.
I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him
In the living years.
Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got.
You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence.
Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye.
So we open up a quarrel

Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts.
So don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up,
and don't give in
You may just be OK.
Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye.
I wasn't there that morning
When my father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say.
I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him
In the living years.

It's on the tip of my heart, the words to say
But I fall apart and I walk away
There's an angry world
Pressed against my back
And at every turn I keep looking back
And I know you promised me
Love through eternity
So why can't I just hold on?

CHORUS:
I want to live, I want to love
But I'm afraid my simple faith will never be enough
I want to laugh, I want to be set free
And let You hold all of my soul
Has deep inside of me.
But I don't know where to start
It's on the tip of my heart.

So won't you take my hand,
Because I'm sinking in
To this life I've made but I don't understand
The clock moves so slowly,
But times moves too fast

In this whirlwind world that will never last
This love you're giving me
It's not just make believe
Help me to just hold on

BRIDGE:
You open the sky, and open my eyes
And all my fears scatter away
So I walk in grace, because I've seen your face
You are all that matters to me.

So I'm gonna live, I'm gonna to love
Because your grace will always be enough
I'm gonna laugh, I'm gonna be set free
And let You hold all of my soul
Has deep inside of me.
I know right where to start
It's on the tip of my heart.

Father's hands are lined with dirt from long days in the field
Mother's hands are serving meals in a café on Main Street
With mouths to feed... just tryin' to keep clothing on our backs
And all I hear about... is how it's so bad

It's too bad, it's stupid
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

You left without saying goodbye, although I'm sure you tried
You call the house from time to time to make sure we're alive
But you weren't there right when I needed you the most
And now I dream about it... and how it's so bad

It's too bad, it's stupid
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

It's so bad, it's too bad, it's stupid
It's too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

Father's hands are lined with guilt from tearing us apart
Guess it turned out in the end, just look at where we are
We made it out...
...we still got clothing on our backs
And now I scream about it...
...and how it's so bad, it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's stupid
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

It's so bad, it's too bad, it's stupid
It's too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Long time, let's walk, let's talk

[The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today Is Christians who acknowledge Jesus with their lips Then walk out the door and deny him by their lifestyle.
That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable.]

What if I stumble?
What if I fall?
Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simply serenade for things I must afford?
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains
Holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame
Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

CHORUS:
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall

Father please forgive me for I can not compose
The fear that lives within me
Or the rate at which it grows
If struggle has a purpose
On the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses will leave a deadly scar
Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling

CHORUS:

What if I stumble?
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that
I hear You whispering my name [You say]
"My love for You will never change" [never change]

BRIDGE:
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort, and my God
Is this one for the people, is this one for the Lord?

I know you've heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You've heard about a place called home
But there doesn't seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

CHORUS:
Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you're sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold

Over time You've healed so much in me
And I am living proof
That although my darkest hour had come
Your light could still shine through
Though at times it's just enough to cast
A shadow on the wall
Well I am grateful that You shine
Your light on me at all

CHORUS:
Who am I
That You would love me so gently?
Who am I
That You would recognize my name?
Lord, who am I
That You would speak to me so softly?
Conversation with the Love most high
Who am I?

Well, amazing grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see
And the more I sing that sweet old song
The more I understand
That I do not comprehend this love
That's coming from Your hand

CHORUS

Amazing grace how sweet the sound
Amazing love now flowing down
From hands and feet
That were nailed to the tree
Grace flows down and covers me
And covers me
And covers me
And covers me
And cover me

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Na na na na na na na

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

The ones you love they let you down
And I want you to know that I¹m sorry
The choices that they made were wrong
You were caught in the middle and I'm sorry

So when the anger and the pain
Get the best of you
I know it seems like you're all alone
But I am feeling it too

CHORUS:
'Cuz you're my little girl
You¹re the one that I created
No one in this world could ever be like you
When you're cryin' in the night
All you need to do is call me
I¹ll be there for you
'Cuz you're my little girl

When you're lookin' in the mirror
I hope you're likin' what you see
Because no matter what you're feelin'
You're perfect to me

Because I see you as a child
Blameless in my sight
Just spend some time with me
And I'll make everything alright

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
I know you don't deserve what you've been through
I know it doesn't seem fair
I know that there are times you think you're alone
But you've got to know that I will be there, be there